My Fathers Lessons

I never knew my dad I have never seen him face to face.Honestly I never want to see his face (am i filled with hate,I think not)and if i never see it I don't think I would regret my decision.He's never been around so why would I need him now.Sure he says he is my father,but he probably couldn't tell me when i was born.He was too busy living his life.Am i wrong for wanting to be happy,do we not all have the right to be happy?We all have the right just don't go about it the wrong way.It must be the happiness that keeps him up at night I guess its the happiness that causes him to cry when he thinks how selfish he really is.What does it mean to be a father is that just a badge given out to someone who can have children.A father in my opinion is someone you can depend on someone that despite all of lifes troubles will wake up each day and fight to overcome and never back down.a father is someone that has advice for you when you don't always want it but more so when you need it.A father is someone i can look up to and appreciate no matter how much money he has what kind of clothes he wears how well he loooks or speaks but I know within myself thats my father.Alot to live up to, something this guy will never achieve, to be my father hahaha he's kinda late don't you think.Don't worry even though you weren't around I still learned a lot from you like the type of person I would never want to be and how not to live my life so all in all you did teach me something so i guess i can't hate you.You say you want my forgiveness. My real father would never need to be forgiven..........