Labeled

There is nothing more depressing than being labeled
Being labeled as something you know you can never be

To be looked up to when I can't even hold my head up
to be depended on when I can't even carry my own burdens
to be loved when I hate myself so much

How did I end up in this state I'm no hero
I could never be, don't look up to me, don't say you admire me

I am nothing but a mistake,thats all I will ever be
Too many flaws to count, too many mistakes to remember

How could I ever be respected
This must be your way of mocking me

Part of me wants to walk in those shoes
To wear those labels
but the real me knows that is not my place

What about redemption,does it truly exist
could I..........could I make the changes necessary
not because I want to be looked up to,but because I don't want to be undependable
I don't want to be untrustworthy,I don't want to be like him.