Path

I was once told "Theres the door is up to you if you want to walk through it"
Only now do I finally understand what I was being told. I am in control of my life,I am the one responsible for the choices I make good or bad its my path to walk but if I dont believe in the path that I walk it would have been better for me to not walk at all. I spent so many years doing what I was told until I lost my own will to make myself happy,I was always concerned about what everyone else thought and how I should make them happy. thinking that I would be selfish to worry about myself first,but who is going to be there when I need help? Why would I expect anyone to help me now when they never did before but still Im not angry because I never expected anything from them in the first place. There is just the cold hard truth that you cant always depend on people around you even though they say they are your friends,family or your true love. This is my path to walk and I cant expect anyone else to walk it for me. Am I against being social or in love? I think not. I just say dont set your expectations higher than they can reach. For the time being I have not yet found the person that I can be around where I feel as if they arent dragging me down or holding me back so I cant help but seclude myself from those around me. I may not yet know my destination but that will never stop me from walking down my own path.